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teehee( am a dog love and a cat lover but this was funny
10:10 Jul 31 2009
Times Read: 616

7/27
07:56 Jul 28 2009
Times Read: 619

Today I have learned that Jason has given up on living for he does not want to be a burden. So he is given up. Which is not my Jason ... He is a spiritual warrior and he is sincerely in need of prayer and defragmenting the dread, gloom and doom depression, anger for having this and upset to being a burden. Which he is not. If cannot walk then there are wheel chairs if there is no talking we learn sign language. Hell if Martha Ivonne can do it he surely can do it. I have Reikied her many times yes she is child like but heck she can talk again. She can move and so what that she is in a wheel chair. 2 years ago she could not move and her husband asked for help for her and so I did. Plus medical and doctor therapy and wham she talks she moves and she is fine. He just needs the will to live. If his son is not enough than tell him I do not care if he is in a wheel chair or cannot talk we can make him walk and talk again. His son needs a mother and a father not just a mom or not just a dad. He needs both of us and for him to just give in and be weakened by some purple eyed vampire people who are of his blood and cannot take the fact that he is to be loved by me and or his son. Please bring it on. I told Marilyn tell your son that I love him and I do not care if he is in a wheelchair and I do not care if he cannot talk for those are the worst case scenarios besides death). I said if I have to massage his legs and feet daily and Reiki him I will, someone just needs to flip him over. Then I would work on his legs and his vocal cords. Do not tell me you cannot walk and talk if I can heal myself and I can heal others I can heal your sorry butt! I also said if you have nothing to live for remember you son who needs you as much as I do. If that is not enough encouragement than wait till I get my freaking passport he will deal with me in person…..

I love him but I do not have to accept his fate and I will not when I have seen worse. SO I say no to these demons and devils and spirits. I say yes to him being whole complete and healthy.

Found some natural bleeding hearts so I picked some for the goddess Tara for healing and protecting. I burnt an angel candle for upliftment for him and Freya for wisdom for me. I am not giving in to him. I am however, giving up on his poor stinking thinking ! grumbles. It is raining and thundering . I need some sleep. Blah



A very furry

Raja

7/26
20:25 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 626

If there is a devil he is on my head most likely more than before. I fear I am loosing Jason and gaining a son. He actually told his mother to take care of me and little Jason. I am not sure what the hell that means other than he has given up. She said it did not look good and that he was sincerely saying it to her. He has become weaker and weaker and I cannot even spiritually talk to him.

If I am to be a single mother without giving birth to this child than so be it. I am not going to give up on that. I was told that he was going to die if she did not. There for in my dreams it still haunts my head. I saw a casket and that he was in it. I could not tell Marilyn this and the reason was if I did it may have changed the future and all I know is that I am not for death. Cisco told her the same as I should have said but did not . She would give her life to save her children however , when the magick has infected him like it has. All I could is pray is that he does not die and she does not either.

I saw it before she said anything and walked away when she asked if I see something. I said I cannot tell you anything for I have to be quiet and watch. I have watched long enough and Marilyn is trying to hold on her son looks like he is ready to die. She told me this morning that she would call and I knew she would not call me back for she would not know how to say it over the phone. She said she would call and has not. He has had another seizure and they are not sure if he will live through it. He is strong but not that strong I feel it. I have been reiking him day and night and yet his energy is not the same as his son’s. He has passed on I have a feeling of it . My heart is heavy and my mind is lost in thought. I fell asleep for a few hours and I am trying to be strong but I am sure what to say.

I am not longer in darkness, I release my love and step into the light. There is no occasion in stumbling me now . I walk in love and favor of God. God perfect me to be a daughter of you and a mother to this new child of God. May he and I develop into a wonderful team and may he see he is very much loved. I trust you God . Show us the way. If this is to be just walk me through this and help me father to be his mother and his father somehow.

If this is what is meant to be father than you pave the way. If not heal my Jason and make him see that we are meant to be together and are meant to be a family for little Jason not the other way around. IF little Jason can be healed he can be. Please please please God give him a chance to heal like he is supposed to.

Burning a candle for wisdom for I need it badly at this moment. I need wisdom to how to react to her if she has the balls to call me and ask me what it is that I feel.



Raja

7/25
03:28 Jul 26 2009
Times Read: 631

Marilyn got where she needed to go so she could make sure the Drs did not do anything stupid like pull the plug and such for they were threatening to for they donot think his bleeding will stop. I know it will if given a chance as they did with the little one.

I have been reiking him day and night and if I can get a little one out of a coma I can heal the one I love dearly.

Simple as that. So they have a tube in his brain and they are draining the blood out. Spoke to her today and she was okay with it. He does not look good but she knows he will be fine and that is all I needed.

Tried a different angle so we shall see what happens.

I am amazed she was not joking when she said someone would be watching me and I felt it when walking leo this morning someone was observing me and watching me and kept their distance.

Little Jason loved my mini gifts in one box and was seriously happy to see how much I was thinking about him and such :) He was adorable according to her.



Meows



Raja

7/24
10:29 Jul 24 2009
Times Read: 638

Well good morning world 446am and do I have one for you.. lol

Today I was advised that people will be watching my presence when I walk my doggie and such. Sighs a protocol that is being put in and well I felt like two people yesterday who watched me walk my dog and today they were abit better than yesterday. As Marilyn puts it dummy number 1 and dummy number 2 where following me and I felt it so I turned around and looked and they were like damn her dog walks her and such. They think my Leo is a hunter and such . I was like he can be. But not really. He likes chasing cats and ducks and such . He looks around and knows there is something behind us and boom there they were. She was not joking. They tried to be stealthy and well it was different that is for I am not vampire and I knew they were. You could feel this cool and powerful presence.. I saw twin dragons and they were huge and looked at them and such. They thought it was funny that I let him drag me and he was not happy I change my schedule walking my dog and wow they were like huge.

So I kept walking and moved right up to my apartment. So Dezzy got to experience it and tested them like Jason did and such She went through the alley and walked her dog. She then started to run and was checking out what strength and endurance they had. Teased Marilyn and said she is like you and Jason. She was like they said she was like Jason that is for sure.

Talking to ma and told me to have faith .. Marilyn is a target and has been having this target. She saw Cisco and she got cleansed and he did a reading and she made me feel last night like she was going to bring the darkness down and she may die. I was freakin worried. She told me something and I was okay fine. She made a mini order and such for if something happened to her to get out of does and run. With her children and such. I was like uh that is really not cool. I thought about it and thought I have to pack a bag ahead of time for making me feel that I can fix that .

Burnt a st Michael candle for peace and protection and must say it is something powerful working with them and standing in god in his wisdom. I am believing she will be okay and that Jason will be okay. And Everyone will be okay. But my gut looked at Marilyn and I knew something is not good. And she is saying goodbye in her own way ahead of time. Just to make sure. She knew I was worried she felt that I am not coming back and she felt that this moment was the last moment I . I hate that for she was making it seem like she has too paths.

So all and all my heart is holding true to saying uh waiting for a miracle.

Jason is doing twilight movement and they are sedating him and is so he is not feeling pain but they are draining him and he is not too positive and his faith is shattered and he needs to believe he can heal and will. It looks bleak and the doctors are loosing hope and I cannot have that. I need to have confidence in God and in faith in him. Not the wisdom of man.



Health I was in the drs and the cyst removal was successful and they prevention should work for the chemo is not needed for me. Since they were so positive I went through this mri area for my back and the tests were scary, You are squished in a tube like thing and I am well endowed in the chest they did it and said that My chest is getting in the way and transferred me to the other area and had a cab get me and then take me home. I think the only reason so it is something this machine scared the living heck out of me. It made noises and such and I was like wow God get me through that . I was shivering like a leaf and I was seriously taken back by it. As soon as I got up I was seriously cold and seriously what the heck did they just do. They gave me a disc for myself and I was like okay I have to get all my health papers together and make sure that it is together with my spiritual stuff, and so I looked at it. I was like uh damn my body needs to be fixed on the lumbar thing. It looks like it is uh not correct but it was according to the lady who did it. She said you are walking and that is a miracle. So I was like damn. God and goddess are good for if you look at it my spine looks good then my nerve damage is something of a shocker the nerves are not connected so how am I walking?

I walk by faith and victory in him.

It is not when Jesus walks it is when you seek healing and know it and feel it going to happen. Same thing for everyone else. So I walk with God and my Goddess and know somehow everything will be ok.

7/22
10:04 Jul 23 2009
Times Read: 644

Love

Jason is as well as to be expected still bleeding from the head and still not operated on for the tumor. I am hoping my pookie bear can handle this and such. For I was floored! The doctors won’t touch him until he is bled out and dried in the brain. He has a tube in his head. Growls . I have been Reiking him day and night and even been praying to his gods heck what else can I do?! I am frustrated and I cannot get a passport till a check comes in for a reading I did.

I do yes reading for people in New York still five year wheel and readings in general and well I find it weird that since I have been down here in FL I have a following of people who still come to me on this. I make about 1000 to 2000 a month on that. Then work and then sometimes Avon stuff lol or Reiki patients or teaching Reiki. For I have the four degrees to be that. And I use it less then I do my readings what is up with that? I am not sure actually.. If I do teach Reiki I am choosey about my students for Reiki should not be free and for everyone because of this philosophy that came out this destroyed the true teaching and people thought it is easier to read a book and say you are a master rather than train and prepare and such. It took me ten years to do my Reiki training I did traditional Reiki and then went on to Angelic Reiki and Huna Reiki. My students have to be not only will to pay for what they are learning but really have to want it bad and show me that they have the courage to learn the art correctly. You cannot learn it in a year and if you did you were not taught properly. Sorry I had to do clinicals and work on at least 50 patients before I could get to level three. That took 4 years right there. I am not saying Reiki circles are not bad but heck the technique is seriously what it is all about. I have to say with the three Reiki masters the one I learned the most was from my Original. The angelic was integrated as well which have to do with the seven sisters and also angels working with your patient. The Huna one you got a book after you paid 120.00 for the book and you look at this book and it is a note book of about 500 pages of what the heck was this person thinking?





Work

Well I am on hold and feeling like I JUST GOT CATTY with an adjuster who wanted me to do the leg work she is supposed to do so I did. According to the dr’s office she approved it already and that, it was approved by her but I said UR dept just to see what she would say the lady was like we do not have a Ur dept and I knew that. So she called the dr’s office and emailed the email saying she approved for the purchase. The woman did not want to give me jack and sh—for the patient has been waiting for three weeks for the adjuster just did not want to give us authorization and did not want to help the patient and then she has the balls to think I know she is a BJTC???

My job is to help the patient get tens units and supplies and this particular adjuster so the C word, and now I am on hold for another one that has been crazy . It is soooooo the new moon. I want to go home but I have three more hours of this cubical hell. My Gods grant me favor and peace of mind through this crazy stuff.

Then my friend that hit on me asked me if he could be a farmer on my land or the landscape in Italy which is not my land but Jason’s. Um no I could not do that and I want to have as much focus and such on my new life with out old attachment. He would be useful for an interpreter but do I really want that? The man that said hell fuck no and toyed with me in my world 24 7? Hell no. I am not one stupid nor do I plan on get distracted. That is temptation I don’t need. He is a temptation for it is a man that said no to me. It is the thrill of the chase and I will be honest with you he was fun to chase.

Health

I am going to three doctors and hopefully they can get me pain free soon so I can loose more weight and get any bad out of me before I move.

I got my teeth fixed for lol my dentist was like if you do not get it fixed properly I am going to kick your ass. ( I pulled out a tooth root and all for it was hurting and successful healed it) It was shocking to the dentist to see that and said it is seriously not good to do what you did. I said I know but I was in pain and could not pay for your services. He looked at me like understood but damnnnnnnnnnn you cannot do that. Technically I know the risks and he was right I could have poisoned myself that way but I use clove oil before and after I did it. Heck ya it burnt but I knew what to do homeopathic wise so for him to see what would be annoying if a person did not know how to heal themselves and just tore it out. I understand you should not do that at home and the hazards but some one comes to you not know you and punches you do you not swing back? Hell the black woman that attacked me was attacking me for her other half asked why she could not wear cloths like me while I was walking by. The woman tapped me on the shoulder I turned to look and got punched. So I proceed to beat the living crap out of her . The police looked at me and asked if I knew martial arts I laughed and said no. He saw the whole thing and it was a black cop that asked if I wanted to press charges on her after I did knock her out in three moves. Shin yes the groin and jugular pulled her weave out on purpose for I was bleeding and my eyes I know were not normal for her boyfriend was scared. For I threw the weave at him and said next time you insult your girlfriend and how she dresses pick someone that is not me. I said yeah one size does not fit all and okay her hoe looking clothing at my size is not tasteful but if she does that again I would not be as nice as I was to her. The police man asked me again if I knew martial arts and I said here is my name look in your search and see if I am in it. Nothing came up. He said um so how do you know how to fight like that? I said when you are kicked out of your home at 15 you learn a lot of things that was taught to me a person how knew marine stuff for he was one. He looked at me. Ohhhhh. He laughed and said I had to observe it for I was afraid you were going to attack me for your demeanor changed once she hit you. I said leaning in I am not one for being hit and my tooth hurts now. I spit blood out and he looked into my eyes and said are you okay? I was like no why ? He said your eyes are really weird looking I had dark green eyes and black rings around them. I said oh that is normal when I am mad. He said that would scare me…I laughed well then never mess with and Irish las and you wont have to see that.

He said you are a red head I would not mess with you to begin with. I asked why ? He said red heads are tortuous for being fighters on a whole new level. I nodded my head and said yep we are a different breed of woman. So that is how I broke my tooth. Never looked back after the police report. Self defense . I look back at that day he should have put me away and could have gone to jail but all the girl lost was he hair where I was bleeding. So the morale of this story ? I see red when I fight.

Other then that I getting MRI’s done for the back and go to my normal dr to see if I have lost weight my jeans are bagging I think I am loosing my ass.. Grumbles..

Well off to bed I go

A very tired Raja

7/21
02:48 Jul 22 2009
Times Read: 649

Lots of thoughts tonight hmmmm



work

I feel good and some how have the energy to deal with it. Getting along with everyone much better than I thought.



home is peaceful Leo is getting better. Thank the gods and making chicken and rice. lol



Love

Jason is probably going through the surgery right now as we speak for his tumor. I am hoping that he makes it out in one piece.

Little Jason is a serious LEO his birthday is 7/28 he was like everyone got gifts and he had to wait according to Bernard one of Jason's brothers. He said I dont think so and I am going to uncle joe who will let me for I went through alot of stuff in the hospital. My little man went to uncle Joe ( great uncle to Jason) and asked him if he could open his present. Uncle Joe looked at him and said yes. Snickers I lve that little one...

My little man is not only a lion but he is a bear and a half. hahaha so cute.

All the brothers liked the gifts I sent over to them for I felt they all needed upliftment.

Even uncle Joe got gifts :) They all needed lovings.

Even my lion man who is gong through alot of stuff.. :)



Now for something most amusing a coven mate is dating a gentleman who calls himself an ass----. I think to myself is this man worthy of my covenmate? If he calls himself that. From dictionary text thanks to dictionary search shows the man does not think highly of himself. And then I thought if he does not think of himself higly is he worth loving my covenmate? Is he even worthy of her?



In anatomy, the anus (from Latin ānus "ring, anus") is the external opening of the rectum. Closure is controlled by sphincter muscles. Feces are expelled from the body through the anus during the act of defecation, which is the primary function of the anus. Most animals — from simple worms to elephants and humans — have a tubular gut, with a mouth at one end and an anus at the other.



He thinks I like other coven members which I donot on the level he said Dzyan fan or groupie whatever... The man is my brother inlaw not really into family members. Anyways I was concerned for my covenmate for others have said that he hurts people and is not trustworthy. I yes was bold in one of our forums but I wasnt threatening him which he seemed to think I was. So I let him vent and then he tried to insult me with

fu-- you...

you are fu--ing...

what the fu--are you talking about...

meaning below



fuck (fk) Vulgar Slang

v. fucked, fuck·ing, fucks

v.tr.

1. To have sexual intercourse with.

2. To take advantage of, betray, or cheat; victimize.

3. Used in the imperative as a signal of angry dismissal.

v.intr.

1. To engage in sexual intercourse.

2. To act wastefully or foolishly.

3. To interfere; meddle. Often used with with.

n.

1. An act of sexual intercourse.

2. A partner in sexual intercourse.

3. A despised person.

4. Used as an intensive: What the fuck did you do that for?

interj.

Used to express extreme displeasure.

Phrasal Verbs:

fuck off

1. Used in the imperative as a signal of angry dismissal.

2. To spend time idly.

3. To masturbate.



So yes I should have kept the email it was funny as heck I laughed so hard I think I almost got hiccips!!!!! He thinks I am somehow making my covenmate have second thoughts about their relationship.

Sadly I am not encouraging it but if she is happy that is all that matters. However I believe she deserves much better than someone whom calls himself an ass----.

The he got angered at me saying Nasmaste' at the end of my emails.I thought he would know for it is universal not only in Japan and other western countries but also Egypt. I forgot the book but it means peace be with you or hi or goodbye. He did not know what it meant so I told him. He was quiet after that.

I see this relationship as seriously flawed. A mate should be equal to you. If he is not then you are not yoked right and you really should not be dating or seeing that person. Self respect is something I demand in a partner for if he has a low self esteem than that man wont be my equal to me and I will always have to bring him up. I have to raise myself everyday to uplift myself I dont have time for that mess.





Now last but not least PCOS diet and cancerous cysts that I have been going through. I got two removed successfully. So this is good and then they give me pills that are for the cancer as a prevention. Ontop of this I have to do a almost no carb diet. I have been doing it for I have to change my eating habits. But cottage cheese? That stuff is oh my goddess what the bloody hell person made such a awful icky yucky thing? Then you tell me I can eat yogurt with it. The two together makes me think wow this is most disguisting thing.. I am trying to limit my carbs and people have noticed I have lost weight already. I was like okay that sounds like a good sign... But damn can a sister get a carrot stick or tomatoe?







bows to everyone reading my long journal sorry folks had to let the world know my thoughts for I really think some people should ask questions rather than insult a person and say they are messing with a relationship.... Rather ask me why I think you are not worthy and why I am protecting my covenmate



Namaste'

happy paws and purrs



Raja

7/21
11:28 Jul 21 2009
Times Read: 654

Well Jason's blood clot is gone woohoo. Step one is done egads. The doctors are going to do try the tumor removal will be trying on wednesday. I am yes awake and alive lol at this time of the morning yeepppp. Time zone difference is so different with Italy and me praying rather than sleeping.

I am I alive and kicking.

Marilyn is going to Italy friday to see Jason and celebrate her birthday. Weird but cool.



That is all for right now folks



happy paws and sandpapery licks

Raja

7/18
15:52 Jul 19 2009
Times Read: 658

Well Jason is not being operated on his brain was bleeding and he has a tube on his head. His blood is serious taking a toll. When the drs are praying before they touch him to me that is saying something. The fact that reiki has slowed it down a little and that I donot have him in my presence like I did before worries me too.

Praying to his gods are a little weird too.

I may be going to Ibis's house to do the reading and all . He was praying over Jason a few nights ago that I know so he may end up doing it again.

I am not sure what today brings I just know something is not Kosher in Denmark.

I also know there is something against Jason that is not like the one that was near little Jason. I feel some kind of awful and I actually prayed to Azreal to take the veil off my eyes. I saw this image of a man that haunts my dreams wanting to know my name.

And all I say is none of your business. Like the ghost man this one is persistant but not near Jason.

He has purple eyes and I looked directly into him and saw he does not like christainity as a whole so I started saying the lord's prayer and he growled.

hmmm Imagine that some vampires really dont like prayers...



A very aware and awoken



Raja

07/16/09
20:19 Jul 16 2009
Times Read: 661

I am not wanting to be at work today it is abit too much for some reason . I was thinking that trying to get up this morning was mad crazy I tried to get up and fell back down. I walked Leo and let him me drag me to his spots today for I was that out of it. I was like hook on something what ever it was I was not able to focus on anything but Leo. Then I got in ate a little and mediated and went to bed. So I could feel better. But nooooooooooo I was still tired and was not amused at all. Drank tea nope , drank red tea uh no and and energy drink uh I feel like my mind is fooked up and I cannot concentrate at work and I have to be here until 530pm to make up my time. From going to doctors myself for the week ahead so it is really not catching up you can only get two hours tops a day and you do not make up all the time you missed to boot . I am not working like I should but everyone around me is a slacker so why can I not be one for a change when it comes to working if you will. I normally do my best all day and still do not get as much done as some.

So anyways I thought about it I went to bed at 730pm and woke up at 300am with feeling this way. And it is not going away. I am thinking I may be linked to Jason and that he is feeling woohoo

On break and it is only 313pm sighs I am hoping all is okay with Jason wont know anything till tomorrow so it is a bit annoying to say the least. I cannot wait to get home and I am not sure what to think of this place. It gets better and better around here they are taking our key associate away and on top of that I was being nice and picked up a email that turned into a massive headache big mistake for handling that. Never doing that again . Trying to be nice is getting me into trouble.



blah



Raja

7/14/09
09:36 Jul 14 2009
Times Read: 667

Well walking my dog is an interesting one got up at 300 is, for I woke up from really weird dreams. I was so damn tired from crying myself to sleep for Jason called me and he was trying reciting poetry to me and could not for the chemo got him. He is feeling the first stage that he is dying and that his heart is hurting for we both have been crying and he knows it. He was trying so hard to be romantic and I was like I love you baby you will be fine. I did not tell him that I got Cisco praying to make sure that his surgery will be successful and whatever bad juju is over him. Marilyn did not have the money and I was saving the money for my reading of my alter so I know who to pray to in the path of Ifa for I wanted to understand why a woman came up to me and said I have a beautiful and strong alter. I said thank you and she smiled and walked away. Plus Jason is involved in that so this is why I was like okay this is a good thing. Maybe…

Anyways Leo my poor dog has a woman that is baddddddddd. I was damn tired and even with glasses I was barely making for my eyes were omg sore. So I know my dog is forgiving. He was pullng me to get out the door and well I dropped the leash handled which is plastic and all I heard from Leo was ooofffffff

I apologized and pet his head then went on walking him he looked at me like yeah I am walking ahead of you ,you may do that again. He gave me a chuckle like I have never laughed before. Why the poor baby was like I need to go to the bathroom and you are dropping crap on me?? On my head. Looking at me like bitch I am going to terrorize I don’t know how and I don’t know when but I will. On our walk we saw a bunny rabbit not common naturally but okay different that is for sure. Saw an opossum too which again was weird . Where I live there is hustle and bustle that is why I was like huh.

So dreams I had where weird and pondered them while walking Leo

For example I saw a white shark and my sister and I were surfing and since it saw me it wanted to eat me or her. I saw two white whales and then the shark. I swam as fast as possible and to my sister to get on the boat. She looked at me like why . I said just do it and I slapped the shit out of the shark and it was lookin at us as if we could be gotten luckily the boat was huge and my surf board was okay. But I was like that is why…. She blinked and looked at me like damnnnnnnn.

The next dream which was weird was spider man and cat woman were dating and they both heard there was a new temple found and so both came to find out more and both noticed there was a part of the temple that was gone awhile ago. Thinking this they were both said ahhh spaceship ? I was watching them and saw it was near the Nile for some reason the Nile was seriously clear and the water was beautiful so I walked and looked near it and saw there where different fish in it and smiled. I soaked in it ad basked in it while they were trying to figure out if the temple is a space ship or not and if we were going to be taken and such. I was listening to them argue he point and I said could be why the advancement we have had happened. Both stopped arguing and looked at me and said how can that be. I said like Atlantis our world is dying and no one is really taken care of mother earth she is going to get us back and as you see there it happened before. (Still soaking in the water. )

Woke up and thought okay no more uh crying this is worse then reality lol I had burnt a candle for peace and serenity instead I have shark attacks and arguments with fictional characters. Yummy



yeah

purrs



Raja

07/13
09:09 Jul 13 2009
Times Read: 672

Well Marilyn told me that little Jason is going to be my son whether or not my Jason will make the radiation, and chemotherapy and the release of pressure in his brain. He has a brain cancer that is a tumor but also is literally right on the brain. So they are afraid to get that part but they will release the tension. and remove as much as they can in two surgeries. My heart sunk when she told me that for here I was positively sure he was going to make it. I cried as she told me little Jason told his daddy I will be fine if you go I will get a mother and god will get a strong angel. I started crying . Uncle Joe cried and had to leave the room. I cried for that sounded like the child believes he is going to die. He cannot die. He just cannot. I cannot be a single mother with out him. They are actually get paper work on me adopting little Jason if he does die. Marilyn looked at me. The child wants you as his mother whether you are married to him or not. Whether he is dead or not. I looked at her and said can we move earlier so we can spend time with him? She said she would see what can be done. The house is almost finish and it is needing the rest of the furniture. I was like oh come what the heck is going on? You see it as he is dieing right away? I looked at her horrified. I asked has he given up so quickly? I busted in to tears again. She said no but it could happen. I said he better not or I will kill him myself. She laughed and said okay. I said to her that is not right . He needs to know he is loved and all.

She came over to ask for forty bucks and I gave it to her for she needed to clean her house. She got new things for spiritual cleansing and I got the statues of Obatala and st Barbara for they are his orishas. I prayed over the candle and asked the st Barbara one use the sacrifice on the candle and protect Little Jason big Jason and me. I need Jason to be strong so he can over come it. I need him to realize he needs to stay around and know it and own it that he will heal. That he can survive with much joy and happiness. He needs to know love. According to Ibis’s husband. There is a spell on Jason and this is why they cannot fix him fully. I need the right spell to fix him. I sent him love and healing with reiki energy. I fell asleep for a little bit.

I did a spell for finding out who did the spell on Jason.





What I saw in the bath. Something was wrong. I saw in a car it is black and gray interior with a like square and red light. The house was limestone and light grey. And pillars in the front. Someone is in the house that should not be in the house. Uncle Joe is too distracted to notice this there fore Nana has to probe them. For there is someone who is not who he seems. He had a tracker on the boys. He will do it again. I sense it. If he knows magic he will try to block or do something to harm Jason and that same person is on the land somewhere and is trusted for some reason. Marilyn knew what I was talking about right away. I never heard of a gps . Since they know Marilyn is alive they are going to hit the children some how. And I am not liking it one bit. For asked to see who did it and I did not get shit on a name or a person I got a glimpse of something I am not sure of. The person does not like does not like humans

and thinks that Marilyn’s children are half breeds. Not true blood and will fook up the order of things. Marilyn says I am seeing what could be the future. For I have seen some stuff before.

But as you can see it is a glimpse of something and not even sure it is real. But marilyn confirmed the house and all. It was her sister's house and car.

I was not thrilled about the fact I am seeing other peoples homes and I dont know who the heck they are. And what doesthis have to with the one who had done the spell from the other side?

ripples in the water



a tad confused and stirred



Raja

7/11/09
12:27 Jul 12 2009
Times Read: 673

I had repacked the box and such and well I thought t would be an hour of burning cds for the four boys of Michael Jackson but nooooooooooooooo. I got uncle Joe, Frank Sinatara and Marilyn’s stuff too . I did it from 620pm till omg 120am and then was wired on the fact that I found a book on Couples confronting cancer.(keeping your relationship strong. By Joy Fincannon and Katherine Bruss. So read the parts of brain tumors and what may happen and what he must be going through. For he told his brother to tell Marilyn if He becomes a vegetable he does not want me to suffer with him. I was like what the fuck? I told her I don’t care what he is . We can communicate on astral realm and not have an issue. He said okay. I said he is going to be okay and he may be forgetful or something but he wont be going to freakin be veggie person. They will help him and get the cancerous tumor and get his inflammation down and be successful at it. I know she was preparing me for the worst and I understand that.

He has to go through the six d’s

Death

Dependence

Disfigurement

Disruption

Disability

Discomfort

He is thinking this all his head and I now understand why he is worried and what might happen and I was like uh no yes he will go thru discomfort and maybe memory loss but heck maybe they can tame the anger zone too while they are at it. (terrible joke I know) Marilyn kept tearing up and really not having it together . I went to the extreme and got outback with her so she could be okay. She was hungry. And it calmed her down a bit and she was seriously grateful to have it. And to have me in the cab with her . She was seriously happy or more balanced. She spoke of little Jason and how lion cub he got. He said to Uncle Joe and said you should not disrespect my mommy . She does not have a the evacuation of fecal matter coming forth from my mouth for I tell Dezzy what Marilyn is not for she hides a lot of it and Dezzy knows that there is more she is not telling her. So I tell it like it is and do not treat her like a 12 year old. So anyways uncle Joe knows this and well he said that but in a different mannor and little Jason heard him while he was in a coma. He said do not talk like that about my mother and do not say anything again like that again about her. Or you will regret it. A 10 year old saying this to an elder vampire. Uncle Joe was like he has a lot of balls and just listened to him. Bernard had to get out of the room for he had to laugh and could not hold it in. Which is a good sign. He was like the brothers never talk like that and know their asses would be grass if they said that. Then uncle Joe said what if your mother whips your ass? Then I will take it from her but I would never take it from you for you are not my mother and you are not going to hit me for what I say. Uncle Joe was fine with that and left it alone for we almost lost him and frankly right now he will be okay as he sees his energy. I was like holy shit Marilyn he needs to respect his elders and not say that to him. Marilyn laughed and said well he says to Jason. My mommy does not have to work she is going to be with me whenever I am home and I am going to be with my mommy. She is my gift not yours daddy. She is not going to be working either. For me and her are going to be together and such. He asked what if she wants to work .. Well then I will go with her. I said to her what the heck does he think I am going to do? She said she was not sure but Jason will only have time with me when we go to bed. I laughed and said what?? I looked at her big eyed . What the heck.?? I know he wants a mother and I know he needs one I get that and yes I will be there for him but I am going to have to learn stuff from nana and learn how to fight and such. Oh he knows that he asked Nana to show how to calm Uncle Joe over him so he wont fight with you anymore and wont be mean to me. There is a spell he knows she has. I looked at her again like do what? She said yes there is a spell that can make him not fight at you. I said well what is the point in not being able to fight back? He just doesn’t want you to be disrespected in anyway. He said the same to uncle Bernard that Tara is my mommy and my gift. Not daddy’s. She will love me over him better. I was like uhhh I am in love with Jason and if he thinks I am not going to spend quality time for him and I, he must be bolder then I thought. She said ever since he woke up he got out like a lion not a lion cub..I was in shock when she was telling me this. I got red in the face and thought he was going to be sharing me. She said not in his book. I smiled well he wants a mother and I understand that and yes I will be there for him. She was like you know you are going to have to legally adopt him. I said I would do that with no problem for that is Jason’s child and he is apart of him.. I figured I would have to. She looked at me like okay at least I was open to that. She was trying to get us married right away for if Jason does die from the cancer the child will not have a parent. For his real mom is not in his life at all. So I get that. I understand that he needs a mother and I am totally for that. For he is most adorable astrally and he is willing to learn and such..



Anyways a very contnted cat no matter the issue.



Raja

7/9/09
01:28 Jul 10 2009
Times Read: 677

Well today I went to my pcos Doctor and now they have me wanting to loose weight. I told them I would love to however what you are asking me to do here is eat all organically. Down here in Jacksonville Florida you have either have grassroots, or native sun for that and well without a car I cannot go to a farmers market and or butcher. To get cheaper veggies and animal meat. I looked at her and said I would have to jump start my body to go to the farm in Italy and she looked at me funny. She said you are Italian? I said no Sicilian there is something different about us for some reason. I said I am frankly a mutt. Italian, Russian, Irish and Native Indian. So you have a woman that has um interesting though patterns about life. She looked at me and looked at all the native Indian stuff in the room. She noticed a statue that has the hair style I wear to keep my bangs back for I am growing my hair out for the wedding. But it is not half up and half down it is just the mild part and I looked at her like that is probably one of my ancestors. I picked it up and it was a Choctaw Indian. I smiled I said yep that is our roots. The only reason why I cut my hair is for locks of love or if someone dies. Like Max did. I chopped my hair down to about oh above my ear and they looked at me at work like what the fook happened? I said I sacrificed my hair for he was the one I loved when you met me you looked at me like why did I have really short hair I remember the look for you also noticed I had cut my hair. Your eyes got huge last year that is why I cut my hair. She did the ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I smiled and said yeah sitting back down. She said so you must have an interesting life. I said I chose to be here for I like the ocean and well it was a poor choice. Never doing that again. She looked at me and said what do you mean? I said well hopefully I will be married and moving to Italy. She looked at my hand and wanted to see a ring. I smiled and said it is on the way my other half has been out of commission for he had a car accident in Italy. She said so you are marrying someone Italian she looked at me like wow. I said no he is Spanish, Italian , Nigeria and some Native Indian I have never heard of. She snickered and said you are that sure? I said yep.

Today I met uncle Joe’s friend Al. He is a joker slash partner in crime back in the day. Never met him and or uncle Joe. I snickered for he looked like a deer with head lights. When I asked how he met uncle Jo. He lied and then changed the subject to am I married ? I said I will be in December. Anyways he slipped and his wife and him and Marilyn were like trying to not worry me. I looked out the window and shook my head. Marilyn tried to calm Al’s wife Jo but chiming in and I looked out the window and said nothing. I ignored it. I smiled and said he is definitely uncle Joe’s buddy. Hehe. I just shook my head and said nothing and Marilyn looked at me and could not read me at all. I did not say a word till I went to my pt to see if he can do something.

I was in too much pain and had not eaten since last night. Not on purpose but I was getting to that but she looked at me and noticed the PT doctor bruised me in the back of my legs and she noticed I was not talking on the way back. I kind of just left it as eh.. She is like what was he doing? I said evaluating me for my feet to see what the issue is and he believes it has to do with my back and feet correlate to it. He noticed something about one side and the other and when I got up I was dizzy and unbalanced for the table I sat on made my legs numb. She looked at me and yelled what the hell kind of doctor is he to bruise you? I said I bruise easily so it will go away. If it gets better by a few bruises it will be worth it. On another subject.

I found out that the accident was a blessing in disguise. Everyone but my Jason is out of the hospital and they thought he had a contusion and it was not when the brain surgeon saw his brain and noticed he had a golf ball sized tumor right now where his anger is felt and why has acted out and fallen out. I told her to tell them to look at his head for I had been Reiking both Jason and his son. But you were like no he is just nuts now. She looked at me and said well tell me he will be okay. I said he will be. She did not like how I sounded. I said I your uncle said I have a diarrhea mouth and I will be honest with you I cannot tell you what I have seen. She looked at me like that is not fair. I said life is not fair. At least they found it before I got married. If it is cancer and he had to get surgery he will make it out okay. She looked at me like what are you not saying. I said it is not my place. We will wait for the tests. One the tumor is growing. She had cancer and made it out fine. Yes in the brain..but it was uh a softball. Yeah okay he is the jolly green giant at 6’9 and such but hell it will be out of him if it is and he will make it. Plus if he does have cancer then we will wait on the wedding for he is going to need other treatments.

I had a fibrocystic thing that was well in the female area and they tested it for cancer and it was not thank god. It hurts like hell sometimes but my soft ball is now a golf ball size and they think with this diet for life thing I can live almost 95% cyst free. So yeah I have had tests and retested and such . I asked the doctor to take my inside out so I don’t have a period and cysts anymore when I told that to Marilyn she looked at me like I was crazy. I said I have not one kid so they wont do it. I am 38 years old I am not getting younger and my body producing cysts. Why the freak not? Hell you mentioned a serogant for I may not come to term for a child. She looked at me and was like but that is for your back reasons.. I said so you want me to give birth to cysts and feel pain that is nothing like a cramp? She looked at me like uhhhhh. She ignored it. I got out of the cab and looked at her like you are silly. My back is more of an issue but my inners and not um to be touched lol okayyyyyyyyy.

Yeah that was highly entertaining,. I most interesting invention I got today from my foot doctor. Voltaren it is a topical for taking inflammation away. Man I wonder if it works on backs?? I will have to research later.

To all my readers I must thank you for your reading.

A very curious cat tonight might have to go out and play tonight in the moonlight.

Raja

rest of my day 7/7
01:04 Jul 08 2009
Times Read: 684

Today has been an interesting day that is for sure. Jason has a tumor of some sort the is right on his anger lobe area and they now know why he has been odd in nature. He has more tests today and well I get that. I am not nervous why? For I know he is going to be okay. Marilyn did not say much on it they are testing him for cancer and if that is the case then we may have to move the wedding. Which is fine. I just do not like the fact he is in Italy and I am hear so I cannot see him and see his progress. I told Marilyn that it was something more and she did not believe me for he was acting odd and I knew it was something in his head and not a blood clot. So he got to see his son and was thrilled to see he was okay. But he was drugged out of head so he would not feel the pain and was not going to let the little see him like that.

So his black outs have been from this tumor like thing. The crash did not help him at all. So I was right and again it made more sense to me on that then anything else.



Dad out of all beings actually came through and gave me some of the money for the dress and well I was in shock. I even got an apology from him and such. BLINKS

What the hell is it a full moon? It is but which type is the question ??? anyways I am on break and at work and seeing this to be a moment that must be a blue moon things for the wedding I did not think he would go ahead and do it after the run down of all he does with his money. :: Rolls eyes:: Here I was going to reem him a new one for being an ass for they are paying for everything but the dress and I was like damn it man what is up with you and such… For the father of the bride is supposed to pay for it all and all he needs to do is pay for the dress. Sh—he lucked out.

Anyways he is sending part of the money so I can put money down on the dress. Woohoo. Lashkmi candle worked with a quickness . I have to do that one more often lol

Back to the grind

Waiting on hold for an adjuster good GODDDDEESSSSSS what a long arse day and it is only 129pm I am here until 600pm fantaublous.

I work in a cubical hell that just let a coworker go to a totally different area and not replace him with someone that knows nothing in our dept. So goes it and they are training this one tomorrow and moving us all around yet again we only have 4 people to begin with so this makes me think that something is going to happen in the long run to us.

I am amazed I am on break and it is 303pm the joys of having a break and not having to deal with crabby patients, adjusters that you have to lie to about orders to and nurse case managers that lie to us about sending orders in and not getting them. I feel like we are modern day pirates and we steal from the rich and help the poor . Okay more modern day robin hood. It is truly annoying to have to fight the adjuster on stuff patients need for work comp. But it is a job and pays my bills for the time being. And sadly they have insurance which I need for all the drs I see and all. Five drs for different things and it is like a tune up for the body. Monthly .. so I get mini vacations away from the hell I have cubical wise.



So they are moving managers around too. So I get to sit next to crabby woman number one and thinks she is a star two . Not management and not worth while to talk to so I basically listen to my Ipod and when that runs out I get my other Ipod out lol Yes If that dies then I go to my cd player. So far still on first Ipod which has 178 songs and it has not gotten to the level of dead yet. Amazingly enough. weeeee fun



anyways I am home and relaxed and get an email from my uncle and such. Asking when the wedding and such.

I said it may be cancelled if Jason has cancer and we will move it to another date. They found a tumor and they did alot of tests but they dont know if it is cancer or not yet.. I m praying it is benign and I will go from there.



Enough bable for now



meows and purrs to my readers

Raja

How sorry my family life was and is.
08:59 Jul 07 2009
Times Read: 693




I was kicked out of the house at 15 years old why? Because my mother did not believe me about my father molesting me less alone the scar on his dick from me knifing his ass. So I lived with a friend for a day, for my grandmother was like oh hell know get your shit and you are coming with me. Omi my grandmother small 5’0 lady you don’t say no to the woman at all. So I paid rent with my two part time jobs and went to high school. My parents never once offered to pay child support or nothing. Omi did not sue them for they could have gone to jail for that and then Tori my sister would not be with her family no matter how dysfunctional it was. I paid rent and went from there. Got my degrees not knowing that I was one of the top 10 of high school my teacher had to tell me there was something I had to go to. I was like okay… They ( my parents)never told me about this thing and I almost missed it for they did not tell me shit. I said I have not lived with my parents since I was uh was 15 years old. Ms. Mccray asked they never told you about it? I said no they did not. She said well you have to be in 107. I went there and 20 student of 1500 kids were in this room. I looked like why the fook am I in this room with these freaking snobs? I was second for the Ronald Regan award , I was second in some making the best grades and one other one for community services for I did that on my weekends. I was in shock and honored for I did not think I was doing well. I never got my grades. I thought I got c and b maybe but technically I should have the next one in line of number one in grades and they wanted me to do the speech if the first one could not do it and graduated at 17 when others did not. I was like okay this is weird and then the teacher who told me came up to me and gave me an award for I was in learning disable classes. I got this award for what paid for college.

So I am a bit pissed off at my ass of a father for he said he was never a good father and well he did ask forgiveness which was a milestone. I don’t trust him for shit. I don’t believe he is note worthy to be at my wedding however, the in laws to wanted to pay for the wedding and the dress was all my father had to pay for a 5000.00 dress. They have been shelling out money here and there for everything else. They were out 1200.00 so I had asked my father. He flat out gave me the uh no I cannot pull it out of my ass. And gave me a list of how he is making it in life. I was like okay since he wanted to go the route of me thinking he has a stash somewhere for he lives with his mother. Yes the man lives with his mother you heard it right. I am not even going into that. But for him to get pissy at me about me asking . Yes it is a lot of money but they have paid already about 10,000 on a lot of crazy shit. I was like I cannot believe he had the balls to state what he does with his money. I said I thank you for your list of why cannot do that. You do know you are supposed to be paying for a wedding of your daughter. It is not their responsibility and it is not your right to give me a list of why you cannot do it. I said just a no would have done. I was so fuming it was like all the crazy crap came back and the forgiveness melted into a pure hate.

I growl and grumble in away I have never felt before. I really cannot believe the asshole is being the one to walk me down the aisle and even worse Uncle Joe thinks if he does one thing wrong he will literally do something like beat the shit out of him. I know he would and I was like then why did I even tell my father? I asked Marilyn this question and she was like ummmmm for he is family. It is bad enough your mother is not going to be there. I was like I did not ask for I was disowned by her and such so I was not amused that I had to put her in the wedding invite . I would be better off not telling either of them. It would save me time. And unneeded emotions.

I have to heal it and I will be back later today

growls

Raja

7/6/09
01:58 Jul 07 2009
Times Read: 695

Cannot believe the day I have had. My back was hurting like no tomorrow and I left my cell phone at home so I could not call on lunch time to Marilyn. She has been stressed out. Besides her stressing over getting a new home and to get out of the old place she is in. On top of her sons falling into a car crash and such and grandson. She has been freaking out.

So get this a birth certificate to get it in the state of NY; but if you are from Long Island Ny. You can say they ohhhhhhhhh you have to go to Hempstead ny for your certificate.



Grrrrrrrrrrrrrs

Frustration and claws

raja

7/5/09
13:26 Jul 05 2009
Times Read: 701

I was asked what type of magic I do. I think this covers a well rounded view of different faiths when I teach new students.

I explained I do grey magic and she was puzzled so this of course is my opinion and do not take offense if it is not up your alley.

I figured to put it out there for many know black and white but know not of grey which I am. I do healing spells but I work mostly with the moon and night magic , it is more protective stuff and is useful. Though I seem light and fluffy I am more the type that blends. I felt it needed to all my readers considering some may not understand the basic principles of this.

I hope not to offend anyone who does read this. It is just something worth while i you are working in the magic realm to have a basic knowledge of all three.



White magic= Used for good purposes. Healing , love, joyful moments. Allowing the universe to bring you to speed with what you are wanting. White magic is used in Wicca.



Grey magic= Night people magic. People who are affected by the moon and feel white is too fluff and black is to dark. Use it for usual protective nature, to if white is to light for the need. Good people more balanced than most. Grey magic is used in pagan groups of night.



Black magic= people who may do harmful spells to get their way. People who use if for their own purpose and gain it. These people use magic for getting what they want and using their will power in it. Black magic is used in psychic vampire groups or satanic groups





I donot mind questions and I surely donot mind telling people my view so I am hoping this will be one more of a tool then anything else.



Meows and purrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Raja

My little one woke up! woohooooooooo
23:21 Jul 03 2009
Times Read: 708

My baby woke up! He opened his beautiful blue eyes and Uncle Joe let him call Marilyn. He said thank you grandma for what you did and Tell mommy Angel that I am okay and I love her and miss her and cannot wait to see her in person!. She said he loves you and thanks me for what I have done. Doctors say it is a miracle that Jason got through it and he can talk see and smell and well see astrally which I am going to have to tell him not to tell people about my wings. You see in Reiki their my paths. I was taught be three types.

So back to little one he can move and all but they have him slowly waking up so they can make sure he does not getup and run out the door. So they have him on sleeping meds and I was so proud today of him for waking up. I actually asked him to open his eyes today to give me a sign that he is okay in the physical and that he hears me say wake up and walk like you used to and all. He did it! I cannot tell Marilyn about all that but I needed a sign and I got one. According to Doctors they don’t know how he did it for an adult should have been dead and not wake up. He survived and it was all God on this one. Which it was many gods they just don’t know how many!!!!!



The types of Reiki I have learned. One angelic Reiki, two a Reiki that is mainstreamed and the other more like a Buddhist view of Reiki SO I have wings when I work on special cases such as Jason Jr day and night. I sent him the healing symbols touched his forehead and said your body is whole and complete and your mind is fine. The Doctors will say it is a miracle. For you are my son and I am not going to let you die. He astrally was aware of his body and he was also quite aware of my wings which I would allow him to play with.

I thought he would not remember any of it. But he knew when I was protecting him from what I call the ghost man that tried to suck his soul for he was into death magick and Brujria. That his own mother sent this man on him and Sarah will pay for that one day karma bites people like that. I have seen a great many thing in my world but I have never seen this type of magick or death like him and he did not know what to call me other then the winged lady. He had a picture on his alter with his family and others he knew of. For I never gave him my name. This man was pure evil. He wanted his soul and I said get the fook away from my child and astrally threw him to the side and held him there and said leave him alone he is not your soul. He said this is not your blood. I looked at him and said yes he is. Look at his eyes then look at mine. You see my eyes, you see his eyes? I had blue green eyes and little one did too. The man was in shock and I said if he is not my son then who’s son is he? He suttered and said Sarah’s. I said no wrong answer. He is my child and you will never disrespect this area ever again understood? He would try nightly for awhile till Anu got him nightly and pulled souls out of him. I said You are going to remember these eyes for the rest of your life and it wont be long till your souls are all removed from you. He actually drew a picture of me for he could not focus after awhile I was different then anything he had seen. It frustrated him that he tried everything to attack me and such and I would throw him to Max how took him to Anu.

Then I showed little one protective magic and he could not get at him  When I got in I would throw him out and hand him over to Anu, who was taking souls out of him. The more he did go after my son the more I would send him straight to Anu. The ghost man got weaker each time he came and he got. Until he could not do not anything anymore and Anu got him directly .  The police found his body and it was one of Marilyn’s family members that was a NYC cop, He said it was an odd death for he looked like he saw a ghost and died of a heart attack. The people I come to find out have been after this man for years, he is wanted in Nigeria and other places for murder and ritual killings. He said he had pictures of everyone from Marilyn, Jason, and Jason jr. and a picture that looked like awoman with wings and he said it said winged woman. Blinks go my God go that is all I have to say. My God knows how to get them good the bad ones at least. :::snickers:: Besides my God was there longer than his gods. So I give the credit to Anu on that one.

Now what little one saw a lot of spiritual stuff and knew me by scent and knew his father needed him to wake up and knew he had to heal with me and he knew that so many people where praying for him. He was growing spiritually daily. He even grew wings to match my wings he liked what I could do with them with him like protecting us both in them. Which self defense he would cover himself with his wings when I would leave and shield. He liked to flap his wings and wipe out the darkness in the room so he can see the room clearly. He even learned how to make a bubble around himself to protect him from bad people. He giggled a lot when I was with him for he said he was feeling warm fuzzies whenever I was over him. He loved to snuggle and just listen to my heart beat. So I let him sleep astrally and healed him as much as I could. I have to say I have slept in the month all together of June 48 to 64 hours. I would nap heal him for he was in a different time zone since he is in Italy and all. Would do it night and day till I had to go to work , some how work and then go home meditate and pray. Then do it over again. Yes that is how much this little one means to me. For he is going to be my son and I cannot wait to love all over him. He is so adorable spiritually so I cannot imagine how adorable he is in person. I never met the little one in person yet. So this is a very proud moment thanks to every one praying and my GODS I have to say thank you all!



Purrs and happy paws

Raja

7/1/09
05:14 Jul 02 2009
Times Read: 715

My heart seems to be a mixture of confusion and a dazed and somber feeling. I was put on a depression pill for I have pcos and between upping my hormones via pills the depression pill is supposed to keep you calm. I got home at 500pm and went to sleep and just woke up 1118pm. I am not sure why but I just felt sick and full and tired. Yes I drank a lot of water because I do not want to dehydrate. I am not amused . I feel like a beached whale and just gave into the dryness of the sand if that makes sense.

Marilyn advised me that our wedding reception is considered a princess wedding and what would I like to do and all I could think of is what the fook is a princess wedding so I researched on line .

In the bible

The wedding banquet was one of the most important and joyous occasions in the Jewish life and could last for up to a week. Christ compares Heaven to the wedding banquet that a king had prepared for his son. Certainly a royal wedding would far surpass that of a commoner. The mention of the oxen and fattened cattle having been butchered in vs. 4b indicates it is being prepared and will be fresh, a royal feast where the best of everything is available and plentiful. Indeed Christ first public miracle was at the wedding feast of Cana in supplying an abundance of the best wine (see John 2:1-11).

In Hiawii

The ancient people of Guahan or Taotaomo'nas believed in the sacred and traditional union

between a woman and a man. They called the Ancient Chamori Royal Wedding Ceremony,

Hacha'gua, meaning to be ONE or to become ONE. As one of the only surviving matriarchal

societies in the world, the Taotao Tano' capture the true meaning and symbolism of ancient

class royalty and womanhood in the perpetuation of their unique wedding system....Hacha'gua

In Disney

Many women want to pretend they're a princess on their wedding day (Writer's note: While some prospective grooms dream of being a queen – whoops!). Well, The Walt Disney Company wants to help prospective brides enhance that delusion on their special day; they've asked designer Kirstie Kelly to design a line of 34 gowns based on dresses worn by Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Belle from Beauty and the Beast and other Disney Princesses.

"We do 'being a princess' better than anyone," claimed Korri McFann, marketing manager for Disney Fairy Tale Weddings and Honeymoons.

It's all part of a push to take the Mouse House's lucrative ($3.4 billion in sales last year) Disney Princess line of merchandise in a more adult direction, and get into the high-end wedding market. Disneyland and Disneyworld theme parks are already popular destinations for wedding ceremonies and parties; the resorts host approximately 2,000 weddings each year.

The price for looking like a Disney Princess ain't cheap: the gowns start at $1,500 USD and top around $3,000. That's below couture prices but higher than off-the-rack gowns in a wedding shop. The Mouse House claims that the price point is aimed towards couples who are marrying older, and are paying for their own nuptuals (Writer's note:



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Have met your Prince Charming? Are ready to have the wedding of your dreams? You may want to plan on having a princess wedding theme for your special day.



The princess party theme for your wedding day starts with the selection of a location. The perfect site would be a historic castle with acres of lush, manicured grounds. If this is impossible to find, the next best thing is a grand ballroom. Picture a beautiful staircase, high ceilings, gilded chandeliers, and a red carpet for you to make your grand entrance.



Your wedding flowers should be elegant, opulent and fit for royalty. Consider carrying a stunning bouquet of rich, long-stemmed red roses. Beautiful, towering arrangements of fragrant roses in crystal vases should be placed on each reception table and throughout the reception area.



Consider adding tall candelabras or topiary arrangements to each table. Grace the tables with beautiful linens and table runners. Dress up the reception chairs with white slipcovers, tied with silk ribbons.



The wedding party's attire should be fit for royalty. A traditional ball gown wedding dress is the perfect choice for a princess bride. With a fitted bodice and full skirt, you will truly look like a princess. Beautiful pearl or diamond detailing and touches of lace add to the appeal. Look for a cathedral train that can be carried by young members of the wedding party. A stunning tiara with an attached trailing veil adds to the royal feeling, as do elegant elbow-length gloves. If you feel like Cinderella, on your feet consider clear, shiny sandals to symbolize glass slippers.



The bridesmaids should be dressed in formal, floor-length gowns of a rich color like purple or burgundy, wearing satin gloves and carrying lush bouquets of flowers. Your Prince Charming and his groomsmen's attire should include black or gray tuxedos with tails, and consider the addition of top hats or canes. For an ultra-formal affair, make it a black-tie affair for your guests as well.



The first hint of your princess theme will be your invitations. Go all out with engraved invitations on hand-made paper. You can even include a colored wax seal featuring your initials to secure the envelope.



Continue your theme with the wedding programs, which should also be engraved if possible. Roll the programs to resemble scrolls, tie with a deep red or purple satin ribbon and place on the guest's chairs before they arrive.



Of course, no princess party theme wedding is complete without a royal waltz. Play classical music throughout your reception; you might even want to hire a string quartet if your budget allows. Your first dance as husband and wife will surely be a memorable one as you gracefully waltz across the polished floors of the grand ballroom, with all eyes on you.



As you and your Prince Charming exit from the reception to begin your lives together, leave in style! A glorious white horse-drawn carriage, complete with tuxedo-clad driver should be waiting to whisk you away.



You will undoubtedly look back at your wedding day with fond memories as you remember it as the day you got the chance to live out your fantasy of being a pampered princess through the use of your princess wedding theme

:: Blinks::: I am not a princess of royal lineage. I mean long down the line yes I do have royal Irish blood in my veins. I thought a wedding was two people who are in love share their union with people they love and share their moment with them… The reception sound like a mess…I asked can I elope with him? She looked at me like it was blasphemy! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo you are getting married in a church and you are going to be spoiled for that day. I looked at her like yes mame and walked away. A royal wedding? Ummmm what did I get myself into?

Blinks



I think maybe that is why I am dazed and confused and all that jazz,



not catnipped in dead roach position

Raja

6/30/09
10:22 Jul 01 2009
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I had a day after birthday that was like what the fook was that??? So they embarrassed me and sang happy birthday and then I got a card after the fact and they did not ask Jessica to sign it, so she did today.. I was so annoyed it was like a day of birthday wishes after the fact and the point they were trying to make is forgiveness I guess. The fact my team forgot and then decide after the fact to celebrate it was omg annoying I had balloons all over the freakin place. I had to leave them up for a day..

I hate freakin balloon for one I cannot take them home because the puppy (mind you 8 years old) is afraid of the noises they make and the cat does not know what to make of it. Leo would not go in the room I had the balloons in last year for days. So I watched him for he normally eats in the living room with me and would not come even though his favorite food was on.. So it was the scary balloons that I popped and made them go away…

Then I get a poem from my friend Zack at first I was like oh cool he found someone. But noooooooooooo this was about me



Fair and green is the marsh in June;

Wide and warm in the sunny noon.

The flowering rushes fringe the pool

With slender shadows, dim and cool



Then I asked him why he sends me poetry whenever I am taken and this was his answer…What the freaking hell is his problem? I have an unresolved issue with the man and he cannot be my friend but he can do this to me.. I was like dude I cannot believe your balls.



In My Anguish And My Pain

Through My Joy And My Sorrow

In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow

I'll Never Let You Part

For You're Always In My Heart



Marilyn the mother of Jason knows what I did valentines day in between Tim and MAx I was single and sent him flowers for it. Instead of telling me he cared and such he pushed away far away and said I don’t like you like that. So I did not speak to him for months and then I got a call from him when I was seeing someone Max at the time. The problem is in between that he time frame of Tim and Max he kissed me and it was a kiss that was seriously divine so I figured to be romantic on this v day and boom boom powwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww this man knocked me down and denied me totally. So what was the kiss about? I was confused and left work saying I feel sick. That was the day Marilyn saw me cry. She had never seen me cry and wanted to kill Zack for he not only teased me but whenever I was seeing someone else the charm to disarm was on.

So this time I basically said forgot my number and don’t call me. For you really aren’t a friend. You are a huge frickin tease. He was like okay why do I deserve that tone? I said the poems you write are amazing yet every time I am with someone then you say you have feelings for me. I was like if Jason every found out about this he would kick your arse all over town. If Marilyn found out she would kill ya in a heart beat . He said but why? I said remember v day? She was the cab driver who took me how in tears. He said I just did not want a relationship at that time. I was like yeah it is only when I am with someone do you freakin want me. I don’t need that sh-t right now and if you were a friend you would never do that again. He was like okay. I was like leave me the fook alone! And so it goes this was my day in cubical hell and I cannot talk to Marilyn ( my best friend) about it so I had to vent it out with the freakin balloons… For she saw something was up. But I cannot say same Zack sh-t different man instead of day? Especially when that man his my husband to be and it is her son.( no I am not cradle robbing he is 32 years old and I met him threw him mother) I am sooooooooooooo not asking him to the wedding I was going to and now I just know it will be trouble so I give up on this weird arse friendship and chalk it up to he cannot have me so now he wants me mode.



Only good thing that happened today is I actually got a wee poem out about summer’s eve a little late but needless to say all good I hope lol



The Sun-god has reached His pinnacle....

He shines strong and steadfast,

bathing us in His glory.

May your own inner light shine brightly.

May you warm all those you touch.

Namaste`~



meows and purrs

Raja